It's 10 days till. V_DAY :( F. My life :(

I met someone at work the best person in the world we started talking every single day he's told me so much about him some really deep stuff and I let someone unintentionally warp my brain and I attacked him with questions seeming like I don't trust him I didn't mean to even ask all that I don't want to lose him I just want him to forgive me

My life I'd shit I asked out someone and they said they're gona stay single for a while but 3 days later a while turns out to be over and now she likes one of my best friends who hates her. SOUNDS F'd UP RIGHT WELL THAT'S LIFE IT'S GENERALY SHIT

My mother won't listen to a thing I say and is making me go to a high school that is just not a right it for me, having nothing involving my interests or what I'm good at but rather what she likes.

I feel= like theres no point in saying anything, because I have no say in anything at all. I sound like a whiny teen, but I wish I had little control. I could give examples but I'm not.

i anm a total disappointment..my parents only remember me as the sad one when i was younger...i have never achieved anything and so they aren't really expecting much from me..i wish i could be better but every time i try it just ends up in this huge failure..all my teachers hate me..most of the students too and i don't even know why...it just seems like everyone hates me...i scored they lowest in my class this year and everyone in class treats me like im stupid or something..i hate it.i wish i could just be normal..my dad thinks i have ADHD..MAYBE I DO .i dunno.everyone also teases me abt my weight..fat...there seems to be absolutely no good useful quality about me...

My life sucks right now. I am so nervous and worried about everything. I can hardly keep my food down. I have horrible social anxiety that makes everything a hundred times harder. My teachers are giving me problems. Everytime I come home I just cry. I have no friends, so I have no one to talk to about this. My life is going nowhere...

feel like the only person i can talk to or trust or even gives a fuck about me is my boyfriend, but in only see him once or twice a week, and everyone else just makes me feel worthless, including my mother.

It seems like no matter what I eat, it makes me want to vomit. And even at night when I go to bed, even if I haven't eaten in 2-4 hours and am not hungry, I get nauseous. I'm currently on implanon birth control, so its not likely that I'm pregnant...but I have been recently diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, and ptsd. Maybe that could be why my stomach is so sensitive. Either way, its annoying.

Theres just way to much going on in my life 4 me to be happy. I have a 31 yr old sista hu is stil livin at hme with us. I dont get on wit her it seemz lyk she alwaiz want me to b in trouble wit my parents she creates drama every weekend she has off work. I simply cnt stand her even breathin near me anymre a wish she wud just either move out and get lost it torn da relationship i had with my parents apart. Ive never had this sort ov haterd 4 a member ov my fam lyk dis. My bf just doesnt seem to make anyting betta he neva seems to b there when i need hm it hurtz me even mre the people that are dear to me are hurting me ...