i'm relied upon by so many people now, i cant fail or some1 else will suffer emotionally or physically. i cant fail in helping them its not in my nature, but its made me something that i am not, i'm not strong or always right but now so many people see me like this and last time i broke down and tried to get help 4 myself i was simply told straighten up little soldier, take it all and move on there's no1 to help you, your on ur own for now. i cant take this emotional load and work its beginning to kill me and yet each day more people need me, how can i cope when if i fail i can ruin so many other people.