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(#1003) by Lonely scared and lost
never felt that way i feel the same!

i just lost my grann and i didnt realise how much i needed her till it was too late. now i dont know if she knew how i felt. i need some advice coz i just cant let go and every day i think about her and i have got depression coz i just really miss her. can someone please help, i hate been depressed all the time, i want to be me again but there is something stopping me and i cant talk to people i know about it. this is the only way i can get advice coz i am too upset bowt it to actually talk face to face wuth people, ive tried everything. Tablets, Internet advice and even councilling and tis is my last resort!!! someon out there can help, i just need to find them, please!! just a few sentances will help. i need advice.

bridget writes... hi lonely scared and lost well im not sure if your religous or not but umm well if i were in ur situation i would pray and tell god that what you want is for ur gran to know that you would do anything to get her back, to tell her you cared and you needed her, im sure she knows now, im sure shes watching over u. hope that helps a little, im srry about your grann, trust me ik it actually seems worse to lose your grann when ur not as close as it does when you were close
lifeless writes... I will suggest to share stories or funny moments you had about your Grandma with your friends and love-ones. You tend to hold lots of guilt when suddenly you loose someone and were not prepare. Specially if circumstances had somehow hold you back from expressing your love. I was once upset with my dad because I thought he was not making a big effort to come visit me here in the US. The last times we spoke I was brief and not very nice... my selfishness hold back my true feelings and that was something I regret every-time I think about him. Both my Dad and my Grandma had tragic deaths. I was lucky I got to be with my Grandma when she passed away... the happiest moments of my life... ironically the saddest one at the same time. Things I could laugh and that I remember... I remember watching TV with her once, when suddenly she grabbed the wrong remote control (the VCR) and a porn appears on the screen. She was not wearing her reading glasses so it took some time till she found the "stop" button. (Yes... these is the sort of thing my parents watched the night before). We had a narrow hallway and I use to give her a hard time by climbing up all the way to the ceiling, I will called her and she could never find me. We had pets in our house and I knew how much she hated cleaning their mess, so occasionally I will make a dog poop out of clay... she will get very upset when she realize it was fake. But she was always there for me... I will sometimes get back from school with a "Notification of Bad Behavior" for my parents to sign. I was sometimes afraid and the only person I could talk about it was my Grandma. Bless you and your Grandma...